asas de um anjo

Eu não disse nada
porque tive medo que as palavras revelassem a verdade
deixei os pensamentos consumirem-me por dentro

Eu não te abracei
porque tive medo que os meus braços não te libertassem
deixei os meus receios matarem-me por dentro

Hoje senti as asas de um anjo
Sem saber que era a tua forma de dizer adeus


Eu não me afastei
Porque tive medo que os mares se separassem
deixei os pensamentos consumirem-me por dentro

Eu não me mexi
Porque tive medo que a chuva deixasse de cair sobre mim
deixei os meus receios matarem-me por dentro

Hoje senti as asas de um anjo
Sem saber que era a minha alma a sair do meu corpo


Eu não fechei os olhos
Porque tive medo que o beijo fosse uma ilusão
deixei os pensamentos consumirem-me por dentro

Eu não me acalentei
Porque tive medo que quando acordasse não estivesses lá
deixei os meus receios matarem-me por dentro


Hoje senti as asas de um anjo
Sem saber que o seu toque era como fogo

... que arde por dentro da pele
... que doi como ferida aberta por dentro


me - 27-11-2005

The fear doesn’t go away
It locks me inside a hall
It’s still too hard for me
To look into your eyes

Did you already forget my name?
I’m gonna make you never forget
Did you already forget who I am?
I’m gonna make you regret the day you first meet me

If you go right now
Who’s gonna lend you a hand
Which one of your good friends will care
If you left here
Who’s gonna catch you when you fall
Which one of us gives up first

Worlds and wars between us
Bet we could fight it all
It used to be so clear
But we knew it wouldn’t last

Did you already forget me?
But I’m right here standing beside you

If you go right now
Who’s gonna lend you a hand
Which one of your good friends will care
If you left here
Who’s gonna catch you when you fall
Which one of us gives in first

me-27-11-2005

voices

Why does it feel like yesterday?
Something here isn’t right
I feel I’m tight inside my mind
My mental health is all gone

I don’t know what come first
If the pressure if my paranoid
Do you want to know how it feels
To have a voice inside your head

A voice that controls your thoughts
A voice that kills when you close your eyes
A voice that’s present every day
A voice that hold you inside
And watch your every move

Sun goes down
Is time to die or kill
And the voice remind you
Your prisoner of your own mind

It like your prisoner of your own mind
It’s like you couldn’t win your own game
It’s like you couldn’t stop the hearing inside
It’s like the voice inside are right and you are wrong

I know I’m seeing faces that aren’t there
My life has being a big mistake
Friends got me in a medical hospital
They don’t see they are being control by the voices outside

I don’t know what beat me first
But I know I can’t stand here
Everyone things I’m crazy
But they don’t see they are too

But everybody have a voice that controls their thoughts
A voice that kills when they close their eyes
A voice that’s present every day
A voice that hold their inside
And watch their every move

You turn on the t.v. and they say
It is time to die or kill
And the voice remind you
Your prisoner of their will

It’s like your prisoner of your own mind
It’s like you couldn’t win your own game
It’s like you couldn’t stop the hearing inside
It’s like the voice inside are right and you are wrong

me - 21-11-2005

I’ve tried like you
to look the way everyone looks
this is the last time
I'll try to be someone else
For being part of this world





Now I will walk away
I won’t let the world put me down
Now I see this is about me
I’ll show what I worth


I’ve lie to myself
and pretend that this ghost was me
this is the last time
I’ll fake a smile to the sake
of being part of this world

Now I will walk away
I won’t let the world put me down
Now I see this is about me
I’ll show what I worth

me - 21-11-2005

Take me to the edge again

Will you, won´t you
Take me to the edge again
I’m shaking, I’m alone
And I’m addicted in you again
Fall a sleep but I wake up
And don’t see you beside
I’m missing you

To dry or die
Take me to the edge again
I’m cutting myself tonight
Take me to the edge again
Make me begging
Take me to the edge again
I’m crumbling
Take me to the edge again


Wounding all connection with god
I’m losing all my faith
The words of this priest are mean less
Tragic is the lies you keep believing
I’m approaching from the edge

To dry or die
Take me to the edge again
I’m cutting myself tonight
Take me to the edge again
Make me begging
Take me to the edge again
I’m crumbling
Take me to the edge again


I look forward
To don’t kill tonight
Drink some of my blood
Feel my heart beating in your hand
The pain is reliving
I’m approaching from the edge


Take me or die
I’m give in to the pain
I’m cutting myself tonight
The rave is effervescing in my veins
I´ll make you begging
I let the hate control
I’m crumbling
Take me to the edge again

Take me to the edge again

me - 16-11-2005

Know you

I went outside for a walk
So I can breathe for once
I thought that you were catch me when I fall
But you were never there

In solute in your mind
You decide what you gonna do
Your rumours are all plan out
You tell in my face you want me down
I deal with you the best I could
I realize I don´t know you


I lost my shealt when you left here
I thought that I could make you stay
What did I say, what do you do
You walk away carrying my soul with you

In solute in your mind
You decide what you gonna do
Your rumours are all plan out
You tell in my face you want me down
I deal with you the best I could
I realize I don´t know you


I look inside your window like a stranger
your eyes pass through me like you never had know me
I thought I was part of your world
but you were never really have let me in

In solute my mind
I taste your laugh
Do you do the same promises as before?
Do you touch her hair like you touch mine?
I drink you remembers like they are you
I realize I don´t know you

In solute in your mind
You decide what you gonna do
Your rumours are all plan out
You´ve got your wish you have me down
I deal with you the best I could
I realize I don´t know you


I’m tired and I’m drowing
Ain´t end without a fight

You not gonna return
I know who you real are
Your rumours are all play out
You’ve got your wish you have me down
I deal with you the best I could
I realize I don’t know you

me- 15-11-2005

You stand, Looking to nothing
don´t be a visisitor
is not the answer
you´ve cried
And I know
your only be a passenger
in the cross ways of life

So be free to say no
I don´t wanna be in your way
i just wanna help you find yourself

Never been inside your mind
There´s a intension in every action
And I never feel it inside
you hurt me and carry me to another world
now my empty body falls and die

I stand, looking to your nothing
I can feel the rain
washing my thoughts
I sink into your soul
while you take my essence

I'm lost when I´m with you
And I can´t find me when you are far
I see a dark angel near my shadow
I feel you in my skin it´s like a cold burn

I´ve been inside your mind
There´s a bad intension in every thought
And I feel it inside you hurt me and carry me to another world
now my empty body falls and die

me - 12/11/2005

Constatação de factos

Há dias em que a cruel realidade se abate sobre nós e constatamos os factos.

Não é k tenha acontecido algo novo ou fora do comum, apenas nos apercebemos da realidade, da verdade que sempre esteve lá mas que por 1001 truques do nosso subconsciente conseguimos ignorar ou recalcar.

Há momentos, em que vemos a realidade que tanto nos esforçamos por não ver para tornar a dor menor.

E então compreendemos o porquê das nossas escolhas, dos nossos "erros" e apesar de desejarmos mais que tudo voltar atrás para o mudar, a verdade é que, provavelmente na maior parte das situações, fariamos do mesmo modo, pk analisando bem as coisas, no fundo estávamos a optar pelo mal menor.